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So I've been a bit AWOL for the last week, for several reasons but the main one is that I started off attempting to eat normally for a few days. I restricted Tues, Wed and Thurs and then decided I wanted to try and eat more normally on Friday. The plan was to eat three meals and not binge...well I ate three meals, felt OK at the time, started stressing out and then ended up binging that night.
That led to a follow up binge the next day *sigh* followed by laxatives that night. Then got back on track on Sunday, got to 7 pm or so having done over 1000 cals in exercise and NO food, only to be convinced by my sister to go with her to dinner, and it was all downhill from there and cue binge again.
So I've decided I obviously can't eat normally, even just every now and then. It WILL lead to a binge which just makes everything worse in the end. So today back to normal, restricted not too heavily since I mostly just wanted to avoid a binge.
Ended up working off around 600 and ate just over 400, leaving my net cals around -160 or so. Which is quite high, for me, and it does leave me a little anxious, but it's better than a binge.






















I've decided to hold off on straight fasting until I get myself under control again, so for the next week or so I am going to do one day restriction (under 500, hopefully closer to 300), followed by one liquid fast day, then back to restriction and so forth. This should help me keep the binging away until I am more settled into it again, then I'll go for another 5 day fast.
Another thing I'm trying this week is cold showers. See: http://www.livestrong.com/article/154168-how-to-lose-weight-with-cold-showers/?utm_source=Facebook&utm_medium=Referral&utm_term=how-to-lose-weight-with-cold-showers&utm_content=Article&utm_campaign=SGL-April-2014#page=1
Which is basically an article that raises the theory that cold showers can stimulate special 'brown fat' that increases your metabolism. No idea if it's true or not but going to give it a go anyway!!


Thinspo for tonight - Natalie Portman. Because who doesn't envy the shit out of her in Black Swan.






















I LOVE this photo, it is just gorgeous. She is such a beautiful, stunning woman. The obvious one for me in this is her chest, lovely sternum bones, beautiful shoulders. Long slender arms, love it. And her face is stunning too.

This one is for those beautiful collar bones and shoulders, perfect. And her thin arms, she also has a strangely long neck which makes her look very elegant.

And lastly, this one is just perfection. Her legs are just gorgeous, her whole body in this is so thin and streamlined. Thin arms, thin frame thin everything. Love.


Anyway that's it for today, will update in a few days!
Mayli x